You’re in my dreams last night

I dreamed about my little angel last night. I wasn’t able to be with her during the time she was sick, but in this dream it seems that I am. It was a very sad scene because I’m looking at her so sick that she’s almost lifeless. At one instance I just sat on a corner and cried. My tears went out so carelessly that it seems not a dream. I woke up this morning feeling that it wasn’t a dream after all.

You don’t count the years

Yea, if it is about losing your own child, things are really a lot different than anything else. It is far worst than any grief you’ll ever have in your life. The feelings about it is not the fleeting kind. No matter how much you force your self to get over it so you can move on, still it’s not really going away too soon. I really can’t explain this feelings and I know it’s only God who can.

Losing A Child

The grief of losing a child is something you’ll never get over with. It’ll stay forever.

Just Another Day

Today is the start of the year. For me, it’s just another ordinary day. Since you’re gone nothing seems to be good. It’s just another day longing for you my dear.

Hope & Strength

LORD, I thank you for not deserting me mo matter what adversity came into my life. I know You are there with Anne Sherina watching from above waiting for the moment me and my precious one will reunite. It might not be too soon but I know it’s bound to happen. Thank you LORD for the Hope and Strength that you gave me; with that, I was able to survive every challenge the world could give.

You Are Shining from Above

I can feel you in my hair whispering just about anything. Your voice is still in my ears and my tears won’t dry yet. You are shining from above watching over us, I know. You are there waiting for the moment we’ll be together again, I believe. I’m missing you so much my baby.

I Don’t Know…

I really don’t know how to deal with my feelings. I’m in a situation where I can’t go where your memories are laid. It’s true that somehow I’m getting through the situation I’m in right now because I’m always busy. But, it’s never that easy afterall. I sleep late so it’s going to be a deep one when I retire at the end of the day so I won’t encounter dreams often. Because I hate it when I see you sad in my dreams. I’ll get through this somehow but it’ll never be that easy because I missing you so much.

It’s Different

I’ve lost love ones in my lifetime, but losing someone that came from your being is so different. Days, months and years may pass us by but the feeling of longing for your precious one is always there.

Dr. H. Norman Wright says, “Sudden death is a shock to the system. It can often plunge a person into a crisis state. It’s the suddenness of it that’s just overwhelming. You don’t have the resources. It stops you from your walk through life.” as I read it from my my Griefshare Daily Emails today. This holds to be true because losing a child is like losing a part of your future. It’s stopping from the middle of nowhere without knowing where to start over again.

It is so different really. This kind feeling that no words can’t explain seem to last forever.

Please tell me LORD how am I going to get through this.

Picking Up the Pieces

Reality bites but I know I got to pick up the pieces of my broken self. I know it is really tough and may even be tougher than I thought. I have to pick up the pieces and move on. But, no matter what baby, you’re always part of that moving on. Though you’re not around you’re always deep in my heart. Yea, moving on doesn’t mean there’s a need to forget every single thing about you. I know it means living with your memories and they become sweeter each day.

How Do You Deal with Grief?

This blog is all about how I’m dealing with the biggest loss I ever had in my lifetime. As you can see the entries have no rules, sometimes I’m coping and sometimes everything’s back to where it all started “zero”. Yea I admit, grief on losing a precious part of your being is the loneliest emotion for being human. I’m still into deep sorrow because of losing Anne. I know it’s normal and I’m not giving myself a timetable on when I expect my self to have fully recovered. Sometimes I fell like I don’t want recovery to ever come to me instead. But I know that God will make a way for me to deal with this heartbreaking emotion.

I guess it’s about time for me to ask others on how they deal with their grief? I’m moving on but I admit that I can’t do it alone.

How do you deal with grief?