So young but walked christ like

Anne Sherina is everybody’s pamangkin and apo. One of our relative that is so close to her is her lola Myra, who happens to be her teacher on the Sunday Bible School, she was the wife of my father’s second cousin (Pastor Elias Caido). Sunday before Anne Sherina got sick she attended the Sunday Bible School. When her lola Myra asked her students what they wish to become if they become something that is a part of the nature Anne Sherina was one of the kids who went to the writing board and her lola said she sketched a fish and wrote that she wanted to become one (fish) to feed many people. I am so amazed to learn how kind hearted my little daughter is to think that we are not financial stable. I admired her so much for being selfless at a very young age. People were saying that she is so good (mabait) and for those little actions that she had done, God was so impressed that He doesn’t wanted our little angel’s pure and simple heart be tarnished with sin.

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Now a choir member in heaven

I felt so guilty about Anne Sherina being gone. So guilty for her brother who was left alone searching for his sibling. It’s melting me down seeing Brennan singing in the choir (where they both sing) during the necrological service. Brennan got no idea that his sister is gone for good. Her mama said Brennan never goes to bed without his sister’s picture. It’s really melting me down.

But what’s keeping me standing right now is that I know that my little one is a choir member in Heaven already. Words really can’t explain the feelings of losing someone so attached with your being; but I know for sure God will wipe our tears away and we can face tomorrow bringing with us the memories of Anne Sherina and in God’s perfect time we will be reunited again.

Safe in the arms of Jesus

I know my love, my child that you are safe in the arms of Jesus already. I can feel that somewhere up above, you are happy playing with angels. I know that He needs someone as loving, sweet, innocent, pure and simple as you are to be in His care. We love you so much my child. Please ask Jesus to give us the strength to move on incomplete, but we are not moving on without you, we are moving on with your sweet memories. Honey, I’ve been counting memories and through the good and the bad all I can remember are million sweetest memories with or without you. And now your gone home for good to the Father in heaven and yet sweet memories are all left, I am so grateful to have a child like you. So short maybe the time destined for us only forever can be used to measure it. I’m going to miss you forever my dearest one. I know you can hear me still. I love you Anne Sherina

Grieving soul

You are in my dreams. You will never leave my thoughts. You are still an inspiration, my reason to live. I’m in tears, I’m deep sorrow every time I remember you. You are my heart and my soul, my flesh and my blood. Now that you are an angel in the hands of heaven you are still a part of me. You’ve shown me the light, the right path that I will follow for me to follow you. You will always be beside, making me smile whenever I get tired. I’m still standing tall because of you. I know you love me and you know I loved you so much. I grieve and I’m in deep sorrow. My heart is so broken that it almost don’t want to beat anymore. In my heart no one can take your place. In my soul you are my dearest one. My first baby, my love.

Through the rain

It’s getting cold and the sun is bleak. A future is gone and the past wont speak. I know tomorrow the sun will shine but it’s getting through a whole in my heart. Our love has been perfect and unconditional, are hearts speaks though we seldom talked. Our souls were united though we’re not together too much. I can hear your scream when you are in pain. I can hear you voice calling my name. But baby, your pain is over and your sufferings are gone. No more sorrows, no more pain. No more broken hearts, no more tears.

Touch my soul embrace my spirit. Only in that way I can offer you a kiss. Nobody wants that we will be apart too soon. But nobody knows what the future could bring. Nobody knows why God left those collective prayers unanswered. Nobody knows why the body is weaker than the soul. Only our refuge in heaven can explain all that. Only when I’m with you will I understand. The rain is pouring and it’s drowning my soul. Only then my child when we are united again in the hands of heaven the rain will stop. I’m missing you so much with every bit of my soul. I love you so dearly my Anne Sherina, my little one.

God will make a way

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He’ll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

Gone home to heaven

So hard to bear it seems. The thoughts that it’s Christmas and you are really not around anymore is killing me. Teach me my love to understand, that our lives will change forever. That mama, me and your brother will be embarking into another journey without your physical presence. Anne Sherina we will never forget the lesson you thought us. That life is just a temporary assignment and this world is not the purpose of our existence. We never had lost you my dear. But in my heart and mind it’s crystal clear that you had gone home to Heaven where the Father Almighty wants you to be. That God is telling me, don’t worry my son your daughter is fine. “At death you won’t leave home – you’ll go home.”

“But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:31).1image003-full.jpg