Tears from heaven

It’s our angel’s 12th birthday… as we left the cemetery the rain poured like crazy like she’s crying from heaven.

We miss you so much Anne Sherina!

The same feelings everyday

I’m not coming here often for a very personal reason. I can’t feel sorry or whatever and I hope anybody who happen to stumble in this little tribute I have for my daughter Anne Sherina understands me.

If you happened to reach this place because you are also in grief… I hope this blog helped one way or another.

I believe that recovery is not impossible, but we don’t have to push our selves.

My angel’s nine today

It’s been a long while since I got a new post for this blog. It’s not that I’ve forgotten you already my darling angel. I know that you know the hard times I got with and I know that you understand why I can’t push my self to write.

I came over an email from griefshare just awhile ago and it’s a great relief to know that there’s an assurance for us to be together once again and that when that time comes, we’ll never be apart ever again.

Jesus said… “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?” (John 11:25-26).

I believe what Jesus said with all my heart and mind and I know that this is an assurance that we’ll eventually be together again.

Happy birthday anak. In my heart you live on.

You don’t count the years

Yea, if it is about losing your own child, things are really a lot different than anything else. It is far worst than any grief you’ll ever have in your life. The feelings about it is not the fleeting kind. No matter how much you force your self to get over it so you can move on, still it’s not really going away too soon. I really can’t explain this feelings and I know it’s only God who can.

It’s different

I’ve lost love ones in my lifetime, but losing someone that came from your being is so different. Days, months and years may pass us by but the feeling of longing for your precious one is always there.

Dr. H. Norman Wright says, “Sudden death is a shock to the system. It can often plunge a person into a crisis state. It’s the suddenness of it that’s just overwhelming. You don’t have the resources. It stops you from your walk through life.” as I read it from my my Griefshare Daily Emails today. This holds to be true because losing a child is like losing a part of your future. It’s stopping from the middle of nowhere without knowing where to start over again.

It is so different really. This kind feeling that no words can’t explain seem to last forever.

Please tell me LORD how am I going to get through this.