It’s alright, she says

When I’m sad she comes to me with a thousand smile… it’s alright, it’s alright she says…

I heard that line from a song from a mainstream band. I don’t know to whom it was written for, but I can relate to the song what I’m going through right now.

It seems that those words came from my little angel for me when I’m sad.
When I’m alone I love closing my eyes coz I can see her smile.

I know that she is watching from above and she knows so well when I need her for courage and strength. She’s always there to say it’s alright Papa, things will be just fine.

Drawing courage and strenght from God

“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you [God] are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me” (Psalm 23:4)

I know this isn’t easy though we’re Christians. Sometime I’m just trying to think that it is just a bad dream and I can wake up one morning that my child is well. Sometime I’m feeling so hopeless and weak that it is almost senseless to move on. But at times I can clearly sense that God and my little one are just breath away from me and that in God’s might and power a decade would seem to be an hour and a thousand year be like a day and that the day that my daughter and me will be together again will be in no time. I know that God will draw me near from where they are. That God wants me to be with Him.. to be with my Anne Sherina.

Safe in the arms of Jesus

I know my love, my child that you are safe in the arms of Jesus already. I can feel that somewhere up above, you are happy playing with angels. I know that He needs someone as loving, sweet, innocent, pure and simple as you are to be in His care. We love you so much my child. Please ask Jesus to give us the strength to move on incomplete, but we are not moving on without you, we are moving on with your sweet memories. Honey, I’ve been counting memories and through the good and the bad all I can remember are million sweetest memories with or without you. And now your gone home for good to the Father in heaven and yet sweet memories are all left, I am so grateful to have a child like you. So short maybe the time destined for us only forever can be used to measure it. I’m going to miss you forever my dearest one. I know you can hear me still. I love you Anne Sherina

God will make a way

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He’ll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

Gone home to heaven

So hard to bear it seems. The thoughts that it’s Christmas and you are really not around anymore is killing me. Teach me my love to understand, that our lives will change forever. That mama, me and your brother will be embarking into another journey without your physical presence. Anne Sherina we will never forget the lesson you thought us. That life is just a temporary assignment and this world is not the purpose of our existence. We never had lost you my dear. But in my heart and mind it’s crystal clear that you had gone home to Heaven where the Father Almighty wants you to be. That God is telling me, don’t worry my son your daughter is fine. “At death you won’t leave home – you’ll go home.”

“But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:31).

My flesh and blood

How I wish to have another day to show you how much I love you. How I wish for another minute to hug and kiss you. I’m missing you so much honey. I missed the way you play with my nose and ears until I got so irritated. I missed the way I pinch your cute little nose while saying it’s cute how I wish it has grown a bit. I kept on comparing you with little girls your age and I can’t find anyone who got hairs as lovely as yours. I can’t help but melt when I see that lifeless lovely face rest upon your love hair. I can’t help but cry to see my flesh and blood, pride and joy and hopes and dreams gone too soon (forever). Help me my child to find the courage and strength to face tomorrow. Though you might not be around a moment more you will be my light to guide me through this short but uncertain journey you left me in. Day by day I will be glad to tell you what I have already gone through. What I’m in right now is just like another walk in the park and didn’t catch the bus way home. I know it’s only God, you and me who knows the pain I’m going through living without you. Anne Sherina, my child, because of you everything became easier to bear. I’ll miss you and love you forever my child.